I was never real good with kids. I think they were scared of my funny looking face. Babysitting was OK, but I really only liked babysitting my cousins (they had to like me after all...). So the thought of having my own someday was somewhat frightening.
I remember clearly the moment we knew it was time (to try starting that is!!). Mark and I were sitting around the Christmas tree... with our dog. I remember thinking this is sad. More gifts for the dog than ourselves. That's when we looked at each other and mutually agreed, Yep, kids next Christmas.
So, I guess I don't need to go into detail on how babies are created... but our little man Jackson Ross arrived November 22nd that year (just in time for Christmas). I have to tell you, I did not enjoy being pregnant. I tripped over my feet at the barn, I could barely tie up my boots... blahblahblah, yes I should be grateful. I was. After. Jack was the absolute best moment of my life. He was a perfect little man. I did that!!! (with some help from Mark of course!) I was in euphoria. Up until about 3 or 4 weeks into motherhood. Then, I crashed. I wanted my bed... for an entire night. Just to make life that much more exciting, we were also in the process of starting our new 25,000 bird breeder barn in which I was to manage. So, 6 weeks into mama-hood I got to manage my first breeder flock. Unknown alarms going off in the middle of the night in between bottle feedings was not my idea of a good time...
Life got better, Jack was growing and the barn wrinkles were getting worked out. So, what to do? Time for babe #2. Jessica Lauryn was born 20 months later. Needless to say, life was crazy. Mark was in the fields, Jack was still not walking (22 months.. oh yah!!) and baby #2 was a hard one to get down for the night. (and really not that bad, I just have NO patience!!) I don't think mothers are given near enough credit for this job!!!
Don't get me wrong... I am so blessed to have been able to carry, deliver and above all parent (or some form of) my kids. They are happy, healthy and respectful kids. They are my best friends and now that they are such a part of me, I can't believe they haven't been with me my whole life. Jack is an old soul. His wisdom astounds me for his age... Memory of a friggin elephant, stubborn as a mule but is a kind and loving kid. Jessica is me. She is lost in her imagination most of the time... singing, playing or acting all the time. She is funny, kind-hearted and very sensitive. She is that kid who will run up and give you a hug (that's more like daddy and Gma Dee...).
To all the moms out there... everything you do is reflected in your kids. All your mannerisms, sayings, temper... everything is seen through the kids. Take a second, and watch them. They really are quite awesome! (most days...)
Thats it for now!!